- Areli Tenorio
18? I'm Not Ready
By Areli Tenorio
Dealing with tough times can be challenging, especially when it comes to making life-changing decisions all by oneself.
As an 18-year-old, I’ve come to realize that life becomes more challenging as one grows older. It’s daunting to begin one’s “adult” life, and I often feel I’m not entirely ready.
Sometimes I don’t feel like I’m 18 years old. It’s strange to think that just a few years ago I was only 15. I might take a moment to answer when someone asks me my age.
My mind is struggling to comprehend the decisions I need to make, such as where to study, what career path to choose, and where to live. The thought of owning a house is daunting and I’m feeling more scared than I anticipated.
As "daddy's girl", I always have him to help me make big decisions, and he will always help me to make the right decision. But now that I’m 18 I feel a “separation” between him and me. Now he is letting me make my own decisions.
Today holds great significance in my life. Despite any uncertainties, I trust that everything will eventually turn out alright. Admittedly, we often encounter hardships due to the imperfect nature of our world. Nevertheless, our mistakes can serve as valuable lessons to help us make wiser choices in the future.
I have faith that God will always be with me, particularly as I navigate new chapters in my life. I hope to continue receiving guidance from Him in making important choices.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand” Isaiah 41: 10.
Reading this is helping to alleviate my fear and reminding me that I will never be alone, even as an 18-year-old.
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you” 1 Peter 5 : 7
He cares about me. He cares about you! That’s just so amazing. Stop being anxious about your life because he knows what's best for you. He cares about you.
“I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you” John 14 : 6.
I don’t have to worry about it. He will never leave you as orphans. My Father in Heaven is always watching for me.
“You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book” Psalms 56: 8.
Even during my toughest moments, he never fails to offer his care and support. His empathetic nature shows as he feels my sadness and shares my worries. I cry he cries. I’m worried and he is also worried. What a wonderful relationship. I want never to lose it.
I am certain that moving out at 18 can be intimidating, but I have come to believe that God will always be by my side.
And yeah 18? I’m not ready. But God, I’m willing to see what you bring into my life. And I’m not alone. So 18, you don’t scare me. (that much)